Tommy Rosen at The Daily Love has a great reminder for me this morning…
The first step in 12-step programs reads approximately as follows: “We admitted we were powerless over our addiction and that our lives had become unmanageable.”The wisdom expressed in this step is amazingly powerful and transformative for everybody, not just those who struggle with acute addiction. All human beings are subject to the human condition, which includes a lot of struggle and suffering along with the joy of being alive. Let’s take a deeper look at the messages this step provides.We are dealing here with two concepts: powerlessness and unmanageability. The unmanageability is a feeling that comes when everything seems overwhelming and out of control. Most people in recovery can relate to this terrible feeling, which almost always seems to accompany acute addiction.
Admitting powerlessness is not something we love to do and yet, it is the cornerstone of a life of acceptance and humility. To admit one’s powerlessness is to understand one’s place in the world. For example, we are powerless over the actions of others. We cannot control other people. Simply understanding this can literally change the course of our life. I struggled for many years trying to “fix” my father. He was so sick and was making poor choices. It hurt me so much to see his pain and to watch the results of his poor choices right in front of my eyes. Truth be told, I became annoying to my father by trying to change him. He needed acceptance and unconditional love, but it was very difficult for me to give these to him. When he died, I thought to myself, “Wow, I’ve expended all this effort trying to make my dad better. It strained our relationship and he has still died, sick and unhappy.” That was a hard one for me to learn from in my recovery, but it has been one of the greatest lessons of my life.
How about when we admit we are powerless over an addiction as the first-step suggests. We can understand the idea that we cannot control others. Yet, it’s a weird thing – and very misunderstood by those who do not know chronic addiction – to not have power over one’s own actions. People might say, “Look how he continues to hurt himself and others. Why doesn’t he stop?” Well, for some people they have literally lost the ability to stop. The thought-emotion-action-reaction pattern is so ingrained in them that they cannot break out of the pattern without outside help. Yet, the minute these people are able to admit their own powerlessness, often quite suddenly, they are able to begin a path of recovery and seek the support they need to succeed on that path. Let’s notice that the word “we” is contained in the first step. This reminds us of the fact that life is collaborative, that healing is collaborative and that we need each other to succeed.
There is an amazing power in admitting one’s powerlessness. It is absolutely counter-intuitive, which is why our logical thinking can get in they way. In recovery you will hopefully come to learn the many ways that you are powerful and you will be blessed indeed not to forget the places where you are powerless.
Tommy’s words also remind me of the immortal words of the Apostle Paul in 2 Cor. 12:10 “That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.”
Bright, shiny objects! 